Since our last update Michael has been weaker and mostly sitting around the house. When he feels up to it, we’ll get lunch at a restaurant. He had a fever 13 days ago but we chose not to go to the ER to check for a urine infection because his urologist had already collected a sample the day before. A few days later we found out he has a hefty candida overgrowth, to the point that they put him on two weeks of anti-fungal meds. He has four more days of this med. The candida overgrowth is most likely the result of too many antibiotics.
Keeping the bile duct drains unclogged and working takes effort. Flushing the drains daily with a saline syringe and periodic draining of bile into attachable bags seems to do the trick. Michael is doing those now so all I have to do is change his bandages every couple of days. Of course, when he has a fever or is feeling particularly weak, I will be doing a lot more than that.
Everyday is a mystery. There is no status quo. Michael, himself, is a mystery. There are always new symptoms and challenges. Every day making choices not to invite fear into the mix. I find myself often in a hypervigilant mode. Mike just says to chill out.
It has been hard for me to drop the role of healer and let him just do what he feels is the right thing for him. It is an interesting and important change for me personally. I find relaxing and letting go to be key. It is in the relaxed state that we can heal and allow the powerful divine flow that surrounds us all to truly function for our highest good.
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